So I’ve had this same dream 2 nights in a row. I don’t know why I remember it, but after a discussion with some friends on the message boards the other day about dreams, I went to the web to find out what this may have meant.

Here’s the synopsis of the dream…

I am notified about the news of a plane crashing with my cousin on board. She does not die, but is in the hospital.

So I went to a website I learned about from a friend – Dream Moods. There are 2 major symbols in my dream – the plane crashing and my cousin. (The information in red below is directly from this website).

To dream that a plane crashes, suggests that you have set overly high and unrealistic goals for yourself. Your goals may be too high and are impossible to realize. You are in danger of having it come crashing down. Alternatively, your lack of confidence, self-defeating attitude and self-doubt toward the goals you have set for yourself is represented by the crashing airplane; you do not believe in your ability to attain those goals. Loss of power and uncertainty in achieving your goals are also signified.

Now if you were in my head over the past 48 hours, you would totally get why I was having this dream – or at least the plane crashing part. I was (and somewhat still am) feeling completely overwhelmed by the schedule that I have right now in order to participate in a contest for my healthclub. This contest is what I am afraid that I cannot win. I am afraid that I will not live up to what I am supposed to be able to accomplish.

You may be saying to yourself – or to me – that this is crazy… that I have lost over 115 pounds in the last 2 years, why does a contest get you all worked up like this.

Truth be told, I don’t know why… maybe it’s because I am changing so much in my life for this contest (schedule for eating & working out, foods that I am eating now, and foods that I am not “allowed” to have) that I want to be successful, I just don’t know that I can lose the fat I need to.

To see your cousin in your dream, represents something or some aspect of your character that is somewhat familiar. Perhaps you need to spend more time in cultivating and developing some emerging ability or character.

The cousin part of the dream makes also rings true… and it once again revolves around the weight loss. Anyone will experience identity issues with large amounts of weight loss, so I am no different. I need to work on finding me and “cultivating” who I am.

I am going to leave it there for the night… maybe some prolific dream will happen tonight and I will spend ½ my workday tomorrow analyzing that.