Let me back up. About 3 weeks ago, I wrote about how I was feeling lonely. I really think everyone goes through this at some points in their life ~ even if they have someone living right next to them all the time. I was going through this as an adjustment because a close friend (and former roomie now) moved away.
During the drive that I took that night, God showed me that I wasn’t alone – that I had to lean on Him for support and comfort. Because of this revelation, I prayed and focused on reading the Bible much more that week ~ thus missing the television shows that I normally watch. Turns out, I didn’t miss them as much as I thought I would.
After 2 weeks of no television, I realized that I was happier than I’ve been in years. I don’t know if it was in part to me “escaping reality” by watching television, or if it was the constant “negativity” that surrounds many shows and in general the news programming. So I decided that for the 40 days of Lent, I would continue not to watch television (whether it be on TIVO, live, on the DVDs I own or even on the Internet.) I am allowing myself to watch (carefully chosen based on content) movies to watch on the weekend ~ or possibly Sunday only, since these days are set aside from the 40 days of Lent.
In the past few days, truthfully I have only thought about turning the television on one time (Friday night). I was sitting at home, trying to decide what to do… and thought of turning it on to watch an episode of Friends. As I reached for the remote, I remembered my Lenten sacrifice and realized this might not be as easy as I had initially thought. Oh well.
I see this as a way that God is allowing me to interact with others in new ways. Last night I went to a concert for the first time in AGES (and will be blogging about this soon)… next weekend I might go out with a group of people that right now I don’t know well, but sounds promising… and the following weekend is a women’s retreat with my church. I think over the next 6 weeks or so, there will be lots of opportunity to meet new people, try new things, experience God in new ways, and learn about this new found side of myself.
I can be outgoing… now I’m off to convince myself of this. 🙂