Ultimately I know that I will find my way back to goal and that all will be good, but right now, I’m worried. I’m worried that I won’t make it back to the “goal range” in July & thus losing my chance for another Weight Watcher’s lifeI’m worried that I will be destined to be at this weight (or around this weight) forever. And while this is a “comfortable” weight for me… I want to weigh less.
There really is more to this though. Much more. Lately I’ve been stuffing my face with whatever I find. Not that it’s all bad… grapes, pretzels, and nuts. (Granted, there has been a run-in or two with chocolate & potato chips as well.) I want to be the girl that can have a small serving of that and be satified. I want to be the girl that remembers that IT WILL be on the store shelves tomorrow and that I WILL have this particular food again.
I also want to get back into a routine of working out. The month of June has been very dismal in that respect… but I’m getting it back on in July. Not only am I motivated because I’ve hired a trainer for 10 weeks – but on the weight watcher’s message board I’m a part of, we are doing a contest. And while I am not a great trash talker (and y’all can help me with this!) I AM going to be winning in the weight loss part of that contest. I am determined.
So there… now it’s been written. I’m “starting over” in the morning with my banana and maybe a slice of toast with some peanut butter… mmmm, sounds good already.