It’s not how I planned it…

Back when I signed up for the 25k in January, I really thought I could do it.  I really thought that I had it in me. I thought I could run for almost 3 hours and survive.

Did you know I went crazy back then? I really did. I know that there are many, many people that can run for 3 hours and feel great after. I however, run for 15 minutes and want to throw in the towel. Not to mention that I am the SLOWEST runner of anyone that signed up for the running program at my club. OUCH. So here I am… trying to train by myself – in pain from the jaw issue – and not wanting to do it. Hmmm… can anyone guess what I’m about to say next? 🙂 

I am no longer running the 25k in May — wow. I wrote it. I’m ok with it. I’m actually deliriously happy about it.

And while I am not running myself into a crazy oblivion… I am still going to challenge myself and run the 10k.  I can totally accomplish this — and feel like I can try to improve my time over my one and only 5k. So in other words… I want to essentially finish in under an hour. Maybe I can really strike a crazy fancy and make my goal to be 55 minutes. I don’t know why, but it sounds better than an hour. 

In all of this, I discovered something about myself. I do things to “impress” other people. I have the accomplishments set to show other people that I can do anything… but guess what — I know I can do anything… after all I lost 160 pounds without trying to “impress” anyone. I did it for me. I did it for my health. And if I am brutally honest with myself – I did it to have new adventures that I knew would not be possible without losing the weight. {Some of these adventures I imagined have not yet come to fruition… but I have faith.} 🙂

I can do anything… and that’s what I want to share with the world. It’s possible. Because if I did it — a girl that procrastintes in most things, a girl that has very little self-control and a girl that scares easily & will run from the unknown — ANYONE can do it.